12.30.10

The countdown begins.
Who knows the outcome of this?
Only time will tell.

12.29.10

Follicles are cut.
Little memories are freed
From my pounding head.

12.28.10

Seeing you this sad
Does not agree well with me.
I take it all back.

12.27.10

A realization.
You need a reason to hate-
I will give you one.

12.26.10

Some paranoia
Enters my head as I sit.
No need for worry.

12.25.10

Wake up a bit late.
Material possessions.
A splitting headache.

12.24.10

A holiday eve.
You leave early without me
And I cannot win.

12.23.10

See the two I love.
Only one of the two knows
How I truly feel.

12.22.10

Pretty Boots Kev and
his mighty fine accomplice
dubbed, "The Lumberjack".

12.21.10

A beautiful girl
Meets me for coffee alone.
I wish it were you.

12.20.10

You have deceived me.
A promise that you reneged.
This is not the end.

12.19.10

An old friend payment.
My services are still good.
Thanks for confirming

12.18.10

Singing at midnight.
Unexpected but welcome.
You may have saved me.

12.17.10

Tonight I see you.
Act like nothing has happened.
Help, pseudo-sister.

12.16.10

One last exam now.
I show up late to take it.
At last, I am done.

12.15.10

So you hate me now.
At least, in my head you do.
You do not realize.

12.14.10

Three final exams.
I am numb through all of them.
Waiting for your call.

12.13.10

Tomorrow is hard.
I cannot concentrate, though.
You will not leave me.

12.12.10

The secret is out.
I wanted to contain it.
I am bad at this.

12.11.10

I go to see you
But you just disregard me.
A panic attack.

12.10.10

Leave me suffering.
I pry and dwell in too deep.
Make a fool of me.

12.09.10

Both are sober now.
You tell me you cannot be.
I try to ignore.

12.08.10

You seem different.
Hope that you are just tired.
Please let it be that.

12.07.10

Though I try to stop
Your grace is in my artwork.
Not see it coming.

12.06.10

You are on my mind.
I hope that you like it here.
Cannot get away.

12.05.10

You try to tell me
Something that I need to know.
I just want your kiss.

12.04.10

For the second time,
Our lips will meet in the night.
This is paradise.

12.03.10

Your lips against mine.
For so long I have waited.
Softer than I thought.

12.02.10

You say you hate me,
But secretly love this, so,
You do not mean it.

12.01.10

Put on a show, but
You let me down twice tonight.
So I call you out.

11.30.10

Come with me to this
Celebration of a birth.
I think that they know.

11.29.10

Preparations made.
Hope that you will make it too.
You will let me down.

11.28.10

Time off from planning.
Consider yourself lucky.
I am not done yet.

11.27.10

You do not know it,
But I am coming for you.
Finally I move.

11.26.10

Though I remain quiet,
I play it over again.
My masterful plan.

11.25.10

New confidence.
Good for one thing, so it seems.
I will reel you in.

11.24.10

The one I care for
Sees me after the week from
Absolute chaos.

11.23.10

Scratches on paper.
More frightening from this week.
Never be the same.

11.22.10

A recovery
From my previous week time.
This should be enough.

11.21.10

Finally am free.
I have to act like this hurts.
Ever so happy.

11.20.10

You try to trick me.
Sympathy does not work, dear.
You must leave me now.

11.19.10

You are gone tonight.
I will make my exit plan.
Your back is now turned.

11.18.10

Now my hatred
Flows freely onto my page.
They do not need it.

11.17.10

Cut off from the world
But probably for the best.
Over soon, I hope.

11.16.10

As I am away.
I cannot help but worry.
You are my secret.

11.15.10

You remain here still.
So I will use you for things
I can never get.

11.14.10

Tell a bad excuse.
I am embarrassed of you.
Others notice this.

11.13.10

You show up so late.
I really do not want you
But still you must come.

11.12.10

I expose myself
And you will threaten my life.
I am not worried.

11.11.10

After class I fly.
You are already with me.
Steam hits the windows.

11.10.10

A day taken off.
I wish I knew to run now.
Tomorrow I try.

11.09.10

Wake up in a haze.
Cannot recall my last night.
Feels like a bad dream.

11.08.10

A strange photo shoot.
I wish I knew to stop now
While I am ahead.

11.07.10

You torture me so
And you claim to not know it.
Uncertainty kills

11.06.10

We go together.
I get hazy and ask you
You do not respond.

11.05.10

I am under stress.
You are making me do this
It gives me a plan.

11.04.10

I make an attempt.
Tomorrow I will ask you
To go with me there.

11.03.10

Music will aid me
On my cold, lonesome day off.
You will hear it soon.

11.02.10

As I print your face
I am reminded of how
You will tease me so.

11.01.10

Holiday over.
Now I set my crosshairs on you.
It is winding down.

10.31.10

Finally the time
To celebrate holidays.
Still I stay inside.

10.30.10

One more time for me.
I am alone with you while
We put on our act.

10.29.10

An outstanding eye
And you see my longingly.
I just have you now.

10.28.10

Old rusted woman
Licks her chops as I pass by
And I am fresh meat.

10.27.10

Recovery time.
Tomorrow I will worry
But today I rest.

10.26.10

An ancient machine.
Broken languages speak out.
I understand you.

10.25.10

Tomorrow will come
And I do not look forward.
I must fight traffic.

10.24.10

A gourd being pierced.
The blade slowly enters skin.
You do not feel it.

10.23.10

Meeting of a friend,
But starting with ridicule.
We have this alike.

10.22.10

Some old memories
Of your hateful ways and how
You were arrogant.

10.21.10

Rolling back to class.
I do not mind this one though.
Taught by my hero.

10.20.10

You ask for photos.
My pride is not too strong now.
So I will take them.

10.19.10

One more lazy day.
I just recycle ideas
And you will not care.

10.19.10

One more lazy day.
I just recycle ideas
And you will not care.

10.18.10

An old female friend
Is made gorgeous by my lens.
She grows close to me.

10.17.10

No more waiting on,
Your silly childish games with
The one that I hate.

10.16.10

A transformation.
Soon everyone will see me
As a terrorist.

10.15.10

So I have waited,
And you are out of the loop.
Now I make my move.

10.14.10

As I am reading,
I remember the memory,
Though I never did.

10.13.10

I think about you.
When I am alone at night.
Your image haunts me.

10.12.10

At 7 o'clock,
I have to drive to this place,
That is disgusting.

10.11.10

The start of the week.
Nothing new to see this time.
I grow tired now.

10.10.10

Mid-afternoon play.
Though I may still feel sickly,
Gin starts off my day.

10.09.10

A public disgrace.
Nobody sees my secret.
I will be okay.

10.08.10

A film with some friends.
Late night treks to local bar.
I walk back so cold.

10.07.10

Hateful words spoken.
Publicly I show my rage.
You will delete me.

10.06.10

Browsing videos.
And another day wasted,
At least in my head.

10.05.10

"You will go so far."
These words are spoken to me.
I am so grateful.

10.04.10

I see you again.
We bake together and share
Loving time alone.

10.03.10

November will come,
And you promise to visit.
Why must you lie, dear?

10.02.10

An old highschool friend,
Is drunken off of his ass.
We are asked to leave.

10.01.10

A forgotten day.
Though this is one of many.
A memory haze.

09.30.10

A mother's birthday.
But first, I write this poem.
A birthday poem.

09.29.10

My day off of school.
Sleeping late and staying home.
It is much needed.

09.28.10

Early morning film.
Show me the way to go home.
Ringing through my ears.

09.27.10

Why are you speaking?
I never want to see you.
Believe it or not.

09.26.10

I hear your sweet voice.
Accents ring out on my phone.
I wish you were here.

09.25.10

A hot microphone.
Blares flying through the night air.
Our first performance.

09.24.10

I will capture you.
A beauty recognition.
Will earn me highly.

09.23.10

As I am driving.
I look down to see you there.
You will stay with me.

09.22.10

Ghosts of suicide.
Pay to slowly kill myself.
The rings help me though.

09.21.10

A date set in stone.
We are lucky to make it.
Try to bring us down.

09.20.10

Local coffee house
Not expecting our sour songs.
If they only knew.

09.19.10

Few drunken writings.
Tap tap tapping on the keys.
Quiet sneak away.

09.18.10

Saturday reject.
I should be used to this now.
I never will be.

09.17.10

Foreign exchange kids
Fill this rusted old mansion.
The American.

09.16.10

Drinking on the stoop.
My secrets become revealed.
Your thoughts are absent.

09.15.10

You belong to me.
But you do not know it yet.
I must hurry up.

09.14.10

Long day in Nashville.
I will end up hating you.
It is so assured.

09.13.10

Hello my old friend.
For it has been way too long.
Your colourful skin.

09.12.10

Feathers fill my ears.
I think you will enjoy this.
Let me distribute.

09.11.10

I have a knack of
Getting dealt from the bottom
Of the deck at hand.

09.10.10

I will destroy you
Just to win your heart over.
Hail to the king, babe.

09.09.10

I run into you.
And this is unexpected.
You will haunt my sleep.

09.08.10

More practices come.
Rolling notes out of my hands.
This will be routine.

09.07.10

Too much on my mind
To get a restful night's sleep.
Already seen this.

09.06.10

I am not so sure,
But I probably went out.
It is guaranteed.

09.05.10

I have not written
About you for a few days.
Something must be wrong.

09.04.10

Mind of a killer.
He entices me to watch.
Curiosity.

09.03.10

You just stare at me
Blankly as I boil inside.
Anonymous hate.

09.02.10

A midnight phone call.
But nothing important said.
Necessity still.

09.01.10

A new month begins
But now it is old and gray.
Like my memories.

08.30.10

More music rings out.
These strings have heard this before.
Heard this all before.

08.29.10

Finally a name
For what we have been doing.
The Reverend Stranger.

08.28.10

Another day lost.
I will never get it back.
Now uncertainty.

08.27.10

A day in silence.
Memory does not serve me.
You can tell, I'm sure.

08.26.10

The awakening
Strums on my old, worn-out strings.
I will not finish.

08.25.10

Resting my young bones
Makes me feel older than what
I certainly am.

08.24.10

Stumble through the door.
Only to insult your friend
For everyone's eyes.

08.23.10

Demon alcohol.
I welcome you with my arms
Open to your embrace.

08.22.10

Early morning call.
I have been waiting for this.
You will still reject.

08.21.10

Me versus the world.
This seems to be so suiting.
But still I wonder.

08.20.10

Tomorrow is the
Day I will surrender to
Your awesome power.

08.19.10

I work up courage.
Plan a way to ask you out.
This will come to pass.

08.18.10

3:47.
A ghost from another world.
You should be here too.

08.17.10

I bait for you to
Take a little nibble of
What I have for you.

08.16.10

I am way behind.
Consider these next to be
Saying, "I'm sorry".